I see the light . . .

May 23 . . . circle that date in your diaries . . . Elvis will be back in the building . . .

It's a sign

Of all the days, today was the first day that we saw snow. I wonder if it's an omen?

Love at first sight is easy to understand; it's when two people have been looking at each other for a lifetime that it becomes a miracle.
- Amy Bloom

Numb hands good opener of bags do not make

Hahaha does that totally not make sense?! What I'm trying to say is that, have you guys tried to do something with your hands when they are totally numb because they are so cold? Man, it hurts!! I was fishing for my keys today when I got home (I was trying to balance my laptop in one hand and hold bags of groceries in the other) and that was NOT a fun experience. Yeah it's starting to get real cold over here. This meant that I had an excuse to go shopping for a coat. Got this black 3/4 woollen trench from the Gap the other day. I wore it today but geez it's heavy. It feels like it weighs a few kilos. I have no idea how I'm gonna get it back home. Will look really strange if I have it on my arm when I leave London as it will be in the middle of summer when I leave!

Yay, two handbags that I bought from eBay have arrived. One of them actually came from Australia and the postage cost nearly as much as the bag, which I admit is kinda pointless since I now have to take the bag back to Australia again when I leave. However, one bag that I bought nearly three weeks ago still hasn't arrived. I've been sending emails to the dude but he never replies. On the last occasion, I sent one saying that I'll report him to eBay and leave negative feedback if he doesn't get back to him. He then replied saying that he was out of town for business and that the person he left in charge of sending his parcels didn't use global priority mail, which means it's gonna take 5 weeks for the bag to reach me! Grrr!!!! Man, if only the guy didn't live in New York . . . I can't be bothered to waste money calling him . . . he did say that he'll give me a partial refund though.

I was at the station this morning and this dude totally spat in the path I was walking on, right in front of me. It was so disgusting and I gave him the biggest death look ever. He was a student and so he got kinda scared and his friend was like "Man, why did you do that?!" to him. I think spitting is up there, along with smoking, on the list for things which should be totally banned from this Earth.

Been getting quite annoyed with the lecturers at uni. Basically, as an exchange student, I have to do these 3,000 word essays for each subject to get enough credit points so that when I get back to UNSW, I have done enough to get my degree. But the stupid thing is, none of my lecturers seem to know that they have to set me for one! They were supposed to have assigned them by Monday this week. It's really frustrating that I am the one who is chasing after them. I thought UNSW was bad, man there is zilch communication over here between the law admin staff and lecturers.

My cousin's learning the piano at the moment but all I ever hear her playing is "Mary had a little lamb" and "Old MacDonald had a farm". I think they are the only two songs she knows . . .

I think I am slowing losing the ability to write as I haven't had the need to pick up a pen in ages. The other day my computer ran out of batteries near the end of a lecture so I had to write. My writing was so bad and I was so slow. Hahaha one on the "To Do" list: learn how to write again.

I attempted to watch Saw III the other day but only got into the first 10 minutes of it and had to stop. I couldn't watch it anymore, it really grossed me out. You know it's gonna be bad when the first scene is of someone breaking off his own foot. It's funny cos I managed to watch the first two, I actually bought the first one on DVD. Haha, I think it might be a good movie to watch when you're really pissed off at someone and you want inspiration on what tortures you could perform on them.

On a funnier note, watched Borat and I'm not surprised that all those people have decided to sue him. But I guess it's kinda their fault that they didn't pick up that something was wrong. But I think that naked wrestling scene in the hotel was even worse than the foot-breaking off one in Saw. If you haven't seen that scene yet, trust me, you don't want to!

A movie I'm watching purely to help me fall asleep at night is Marie Antoinette. I give it snaps for the costumes, they are amazing, but there is something fundamentally wrong about getting Americans to play members of the French monarchy. Nothing really "happens" in the movie so it's good to doze off to.

Another movie which I think does not deserve Oscar nominations is The Departed. I have only watched bout 20 minutes of it and stopped. It's no where nears as good as Infernal Affairs and Leonardo DiCaprio will always stay in my mind as Jack. It's funny how these associations work, cos the film Titanic will always remind me of my high school English teacher, who I shall call Mr L (hahah for those of you who were in the same class, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about). This was round the time Titanic came out, 1997ish, and while all the other English classes studied normal, traditional films, Mr L decided to imparted some of his Titanic obsession on us and made us study the film. Hahaha we all suspected that he had a crush on Kate Winslet, which was made even more funnier cos we had another female English teacher who looked a lot like Kate. We used to tease him about it so much.

I have no idea why I said all that, hahaha, it's like word vomit.

Yesterday, also at the station, had another run in with stupid school children. This time it was with two girls. One of them went up to me and said, "Can you go into that shop for my friend?" and pointed to a convenience store. I was like "Huh?!?!?" and then the friend said something incomprehensible. Sometimes I really wonder about the English - their pronunciation of words is tragic. So anyway, I had to get the girl to repeat what she was saying like five things before I understood what she was saying - "Can you help me buy some fags? I'll give you the money." I was just like "Ah, no." I haven't bought cigarettes before for underage kids and I'm certainly not going to start now!

The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die.
- Edward Kennedy

Kept in storage

Hi everyone,

I've actually written a few posts since the last one but I left them as drafts and never posted them. I start writing them and when I read over what I wrote, it just sounded crap. Why oh why, don't I having anything interesting to say?! Hmmmm, maybe it's due to the little fact that nothing interesting has happened on which I can report . . .

Day is night, night is day

Ok, so, looking back, I have a habit of writing a lot of my posts at like 2-3am in the morning, the time when NORMAL people would be fast asleep. I don't know why, I kinda like the night, when it's all quiet and you know the rest of the world has shut down. It means you can do what you want without anyone knowing and I dunno, it's kinda peaceful. *sigh* Who am I kidding?! I HATE not being able to sleep! It's all due to the fact that I have some sort of freakin' sleeping disorder which turns my nights into everlasting days . . .

Since I'm in a ranting kind of mood, I'm going to list things that currently annoy me:

• people who use the word "meh" when chatting online - don't do it! It annoys me . . .
• people who stare - what's your problem? Don't you know it's rude?!
• pouring cereal into a bowl, only to find out that there is no more milk in the fridge - even more annoying if it's oats, cos you can't even eat them without milk
• little kids who shout "mum!" at 30-sec intervals - I'm so not a little-people person . . .
• my toiletries falling into the bloody toilet!! ARGH! Whose idea was it to build the cupboard right above the toilet?!?!
• all my favourite TV shows have stopped airing for the year so I have nothing to watch!
• I've bought all these new clothes but haven't had a chance to wear any of it
• same goes with the shoes
• I've only bought one pair of Ugg boots with me which means I can't wear them out as I need them indoors as well.
• "winter" and "Christmas" is just not compatible

We tend to idealise tolerance, then wonder why we find ourselves infested with losers and nut cases.
- Patrick Nielsen Hayden

Stuck between a rock and a hard place

So most of you already know that I'm a person who needs very little sleep. It is now 3am in the morning, I'm sitting in the kitchen and I hear birds chirping. I have cooled off sufficiently since my last blog (haha, that got me really fired up) and I have spent the last few hours just randomly browsing online. I've become obsessed with William Sledd's YouTube posts. He is absolutely hilarious, love him (oh btw, he's super gay). Then that got me thinking . . . would it be better if I occasionally did some video blogs and posted them up? It's just a thought, might make my rantings a bit more amusing . . . or confusing actually hehe. I was watching through all of the videos that Ange, Joyce, Yvonne and I took on our Europe trip at the beginning of this year and they still crack me up so much.

Oh yeah, the title of this post - so I figured, I'm kinda stuck here in London and no amount of complaining can change that I guess. I think it's starting to dawn on me that I can't really do anything to change the situation, so I might have to suck it up and make the most of it. It's just that I haven't been myself lately. I guess it's kinda hard to have a good time when you don't have anyone to share them with . . .

So what's everyone doing for Christmas? Hope everyone's been good girls and boys and that Santa brings you lots of goodies. I think my list to Santa got lost in the post somewhere . . . This year is going to be a bit strange for me though, spending Christmas glued to the heater cos I'm too cold to move. Man, you know what the temperature was today? 1 degree!! That's one above water-freezing temperature! Plus the fog is really starting to set in over the last few days, it's kinda hard to see where you are going when you're driving.

Arriving at one point is the starting point to another.
- John Dewey

Carpark wars

It seems like at every Christmas, I always manage to get into a carpark fight, you know the ones, where you and another car have been waiting for that one car spot and then you play chicken to see who will back down as you both try to drive into that spot. Well, that happened to me today. I followed this woman to her car, which was the last one on the aisle. I waited a few cars behind and when she was nearly out, I crept nearer. It was then that I saw that there was another car waiting in the lane perpendicular to the one I was in and by this time, that car had come forward too. I was in a "don't-mess-with-me" mood so I wasn't going to let that woman have it and I tell by the way that the car, which was leaving, was backing out, that I was going to get in first. As I drove in, that mole in the other car got out and banged on my passenger seat window. As if I was gonna roll down my window to talk to that biatch, so she started screaming through the window, saying how she had been waiting in the carpark for half an hour, and that I had only come in blah blah blah. Firstly, it's not my fault she has no skill to bag a spot and that I am a far more superior driver than her. In a carpark, there's no first come, first serve rule - it's survival of the fittest. Secondly, there was another car a couple spots over which was leaving too and I was actually waiting for that one, but to avoid further gridlock I went into the one that left first. If that troll had opened the eyes on her fugly face, she would have seen that there was another car going and that she can take that spot. Thirdly, I had followed the woman to her car, thus justifying my right to take her spot.

ARGH!!! I think I ended up screaming something back at her (bear in mind that my grandma was sandwiched between this, not knowing what was really going on). By that time, I had already parked my car and stopped the engine so I wasn't going anyway. The woman knew this and had to go back into her car. As she drove past, she gave me a death stare which I promptly ignored. I have learnt the best way to piss someone off is just to ignore them, to treat them like they aren't there. People like her are not worth my time, my acknowledging their existence. Man, I need this t-shirt:


It's times like this when I think Christmas is overrated. It brings out the worst in people and the mad, frantic rush to buy and hoard is ridiculous. In the supermarket, people were stocking up like the world was about to end. The only good thing about Christmas is that its end brings about the beginning of the post-Christmas sales, which is another whole new level of madness.

I found my inner bitch and I ran with her.
- Courtney Love

Seasons Greetings

I don't know what I'll get up to over the next few days (which is probably not a lot, but I do foresee consummation of an insane amount of food) so I better say a very MERRY X'MAS to everyone before I forget. To tell you the truth, I can't even remember what I did last Christmas. Really bizarre but all I can recall was my work Christmas party (hahaha any guesses as to who stayed sober that night?). Hmmm, it's highly likely that I was working all throughout that period so wasn't worth remembering.

For me, today was the official start of winter, which is another way of saying I froze my butt off when I stepped out the door (just then, I had actually typed "freezed" hahaha). The temperature was in the low single digits and I am one of the most cold-phobic people on this planet. Ok, fyi, just did a Google search and the scientific name for the fear of cold, ice and frost is cryophobia or pagophobia.

I went grocery shopping with my grandma and a family friend (who drove us) at Brixton, which is a kinda shady suburb. But stuff there is cheaper so I went to take on my usual role as the grocery-bags-holder. In no way am I intending to sound racist, but it was a very Black suburb - I just kept thinking to myself, "Don't stare at people, don't look at them in the eye, don't bump into anyone!" Ok, this might sound like an over-reaction, but I actually saw this one hobo guy squatting in a corner and rubbing something which looked like aloe vera (he was holding this huge leaf and scooping the stuff from it - don't ask!) all over his dreadlocked hair. It was soooooooo gross!!!

And another thing, I forgot how stomach-turning butcher shops can be. Now I like my meat to come all nicely cut, wrapped and stocked on shelves at supermarkets, not half plucked and hanging from meat hooks above my head. We went into one and I just stood there in the middle of the shop, too scared to move in case I bumped into something. In one corner was a pile of cow legs (still with the hooves) and in another, a pile of pig legs. Being Asian, I'm used to eating weird parts of animals (incidentally, we were in there because my grandma was buying cow tripe and by that time, I was already carrying a bag full of fish heads) but come one, hooves?!?!? wtf do you do with those?!?!?!

Anyway, I'm making myself sick, so I'll move on - a person that I have come to admire recently is actually a character from a TV show. I <3 Betty from "Ugly Betty" and I think she's such an inspiration in a world where too much importance is placed on appearance:


Betty is not movie-star pretty, but she's intelligent, capable and has a good heart. I don't think it's showing yet in Sydney but once it's on, it's a must-watch. Oh and another thing - it also shows that, with a bit of help, people like Betty can be transformed (hahaha gives me hope). Because the actress who plays Betty, America Ferrera, actually looks like this:


It's beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart.
- Anon.